Yet another development at the workplace. It's like a turn-wheel, going round and round. I've just been told today that my buddy has tendered his resignation. And in the interim while TL hires a new Accountant, I'm going to be taking three teams. She wants me to go over to the US team to whip them into shape . . . What? When did I became the defacto troubleshooter of the team? Or the company in that case? Shit happens and everyone goes to one person, me . . . While it is a good testament to the work I do, but seriously . . . what are all these managers doing? And I don't mean TL, she is stuck with me. Hahahah. But what? Other 'managers' expect to send an email or give me a call and solve the problems for them while they sit back and wait for everything on a silver platter. Come'on . . . you guys are managers! You are paid way more than me.
Phfff, over with the rant and back on topic. So my buddy quits and now I am tasked to take over US team. Damn this is going to be one long hard road. I am seeing Nov to Jan all over again. Late nights, stress, immense pressure and more crap. This had better be worth it . . . TL mentioned last week a promotion for me in April. But as with what it is now, it's just saying. Nothing concrete, nothing written. So being the eternal skeptic, I doubt it's going to happen until I see it. Well, nothing lost if it is just a ruse to get me to stay for the time-being. Time will tell and come April, if I'm not promoted, I'll know how the company and TL treats her staff and move on. No biggie, there are other fishes in the sea. But in the meantime, I'll put my all into making it work. I've not failed so far and I'm not about to start.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Back from the Abyss
The past 3 months have been a momentous challenge on the work front and consequently my personal front as well.
TL finally came back from her maternity. Phew! Thinking back on the past 3 months, it was one long horrible story. Not that I screwed up anything, just that so much has happen in such a short time I don't know where to start.
But taking the good things from this experience, I must say I've learned alot. And I'm thankful of the opportunity given to me. Who gets to stand in for another team, help with his manager's task and represent a major project all at the same time as an Accountant. Hopefully this will help in my drive to climb up the corporate ladder.
At the same time though, I'm well aware that I have to be careful not to neglect the very reason I'm putting so much effort into this, my Meimei. She has been an unwavering pillar, patient and caring while I put in my hours. Many times she has had to wait for me for dinner. I could sense a certain frustration and sign of disappointment everytime I've had to cancel our plans at the last minute. But seriously, this is a chicken and egg situation.
I thrive hard in hopes I can give Meimei the flexibility to choose to work or not in the future. I work hard so we can have a better life next time. Yet at the same time, these hours are creating an unspoken tension which might lead to not having that future. I doubt it'll ever get to that, ever. But I can't seem to put away this fear . . . I can't afford to lose her. And I can't give up my job either. *Frustrated
TL finally came back from her maternity. Phew! Thinking back on the past 3 months, it was one long horrible story. Not that I screwed up anything, just that so much has happen in such a short time I don't know where to start.
But taking the good things from this experience, I must say I've learned alot. And I'm thankful of the opportunity given to me. Who gets to stand in for another team, help with his manager's task and represent a major project all at the same time as an Accountant. Hopefully this will help in my drive to climb up the corporate ladder.
At the same time though, I'm well aware that I have to be careful not to neglect the very reason I'm putting so much effort into this, my Meimei. She has been an unwavering pillar, patient and caring while I put in my hours. Many times she has had to wait for me for dinner. I could sense a certain frustration and sign of disappointment everytime I've had to cancel our plans at the last minute. But seriously, this is a chicken and egg situation.
I thrive hard in hopes I can give Meimei the flexibility to choose to work or not in the future. I work hard so we can have a better life next time. Yet at the same time, these hours are creating an unspoken tension which might lead to not having that future. I doubt it'll ever get to that, ever. But I can't seem to put away this fear . . . I can't afford to lose her. And I can't give up my job either. *Frustrated
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